Menyesalnyer.....

Assalamualaikum...(jwb dlm hati tau!)

This week is  my 2nd week of the introduction phase in my clinical year...

Juz introduction...

some kind of basic gituuuuu(baru nk start enjin..boommmboommm)..

(sory,hari ni mood speaking London membuak-buak..cehhwahhh....Bukan ape,saya mahu improve my english skills laaaaaa supaya tidak begitu berkarat and kalau ade errors especially grammar tu pejam mata je ea...jgn gelak tau....Aziera x pandai laaa english2 neyh...)

Back to the main point, i juz feel very regret with my behaviour recently ...

Seriusly..

Lastnight(due to free time),i watched a movie “gifted hand”..

A lot of things i learn from this movie...seriusliiiii....

And thats why i started to feel regret with my behaviour and mindset during i was a student especially during my primary n secondary school....

(kalau laaa dari dulu tengok movie neyh..iaaaasehhhmannn!!!)

To my lovely adek-adek yg still bersekolah,perjalanan hidup anda baru jer bermula....sentiasa la berubah untuk sentiasa cemerlangkan diri...jgn jadi mcm Kak Ziera ni yg x ada kecemerlangan diri...akhirnye penyesalan menyelubungi hidup...cehhhhwahhhh....

apa yg nk di kesal nyer??

A lot of things ...

1)      Saya menyesal kerana tak  belajar bersungguh-sungguh time sekolah dulu..akibatnyer apa yg saya belajar dulu saya lupa (masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri)...

2)       Saya menyesal kerana tak betol-betol mendalami ilmu agama time sekolah dulu..saya ingat orang    yg nak jadi ustaz n ustazah jer yg perlu arif tentang agama...my target only to get  “A” on that time...i not realize  the importance of the islamic knowledge on that moment....at last,i got A but i got nothing in my mind....i don’t remember all the things that i had learn....now,i need to learn from the basic..juz like a tree...need to grow my knowledge from the root....... Ya Allah....menyesalnyer....

3)       Saya menyesal kerana dulu  saya belajar hanya FOR the exam not beyond the exam...time nak exam ,berhempas pulass paksa diri untuk hafal itu ini..bersengkang mata untuk strive for excellent in exam......but at the end,i forgot all the things....

 yes..i got “A” but only on the paper ,not “A” in my mind....

4)      Saya menyesal kerana dulu  saya banyak menghabiskan masa saya dgn benda-benda tak berfaedah khususnye tidowwww,tgk tv(melodi,nona,muzik2,AJL),berborak sampai x ingt dunia..facebooking....yg ni sampai sekrang pom x ubah2.......at the end of the day ,i juz waste my time with crazy things that never give me benefits..aiiiyooooooooooooooooooooooo....menyesal..menyesal..menyesal...

5)      Saya menyesal kerana dulu saya tak suka belajar english,(anythings yg bersangkut paut dgn english2 ni saya benci sangt)......

Now, as a medical student i realize that i need to be confidently speak in english..but how can i speak english confidently if my vocabulary is still not enough...??? and again ,i was very regret with my attitude...I was not seriously learn english during my secondary school even to learn and to master in english it is very easy....u juz need to memorise the vocabulary...and u need to practice speak english everyday... read at least 3 page of english material everyday....

so,to my lovely adek-adek yg still muda tang-tang, try laaaaaaaa change ur behaviour and ur mindset....maybe u are not born in english environment( lahir-lahir jer terus speaking UK or LONDON) but it is not a reason why you can not master in english...try to read english material everyday...even you dont know whats the meanings,how to pronounce,etc...

The most important things is ur effort........

please..please..and please..don't think u are useless (macm saya rasa) if u can’t speak english bcoz u still had time to change..BETTER LATE THAN NEVER....juz ignore the people’s judgement to u... how long u want to be the slave of other people’s judgment ??it never give benefit to u....yesss....i reali understand if somebody juz look dirty on you when u speak wrongly infront of them bcoz they already master(terror gilerr english) but believe me ,u don’t need to feel “malu-malu kucing” with them instead u should challenge ur self  to do some improvement in ur life so that u can prove to them that u also can do and maybe you can do better than them,...

and for those who are already master in english,dont be so arrogant with ur skills n knowledge bcoz that skills or knowledge is not belongs to u..itu hanya pinjaman Allah Taala..jgn la pandang rendah dkt kita2 yg x power ni....u don't know your future....maybe orang yg anda pandang rendah adalah better dari anda...

so,be humble......humble...n humble.....humble...humble...

Dalam hidup kita ni, x semua orang akan jaga hati kita..kadang2 mereka akan berterus terang dgn kita....Mmg laaa kita akan tacing cikit kan bila ade  someone look down dekat kita mcm kita ni bodoh sangt. bagi saya pandangan dorang tu mybe betul..kita je xsedar...

Saya penah gak TACING bila org pandang rendah dkt saya disebabkan saya x pandai pronounce some word (ye laaa..org kelate kan..bau budu tu ade)..and ayat yg paling menusuk kalbu adalah “Zira,ni pom ko x tahu k??”...juz nice words to stimulate my cortisol level and of course stimulate me to learn english...tq friend for that words....seriuslyyy ,xmarah pom ..maybe itu hikmah n perancangan Allah Taala ...Allah Taala maybe hantarkan orang untuk tegur saya secara diam2  supaya saya lebih rajin n sedar diri .....

so,adek-adek sekalian,belajar la english...kuasai la english supaya anda tidak kebelakangan suatu hari nanti...baca buku english setiap hari tau....speak english everyday...jgn jadi mcm Kak Ziera,my english skill getting worse sbb x practice n jarang bc buku english...

6)      Saya juga menyesal kerana dulu saya malas baca buku(x kisah buku apa2 pom) and jarang sangat pergi library..bila tengok cerita “gifted hand”..saya menyesal sangt2....kenapa la dulu ,aziera malas baca buku... The knowledge is the power of evrythings...

so,baca ....baca....n bacaaa laaaaa....baca la sebelum terlambat....

Orang yg hebat,tidak dilahirkan terus hebat tp kejayaan nye pasti bermula dgn sebuah kegagalan..dan dari situ wujudla kesedaran diri...dari kesedran diri,bermulaaa kerajinan...

“The more we learn, the more we discover ignorance”

so,haruslaaa kita semua RAJIN BACA BUKU UNTUK BERJAYA DI DUNIA DAN JUGA AKHIRAT...

Hidup kita ini ibarat pokok bunga...ketika muda ianya sangt cantik sekiranya dibajai dgn baja-baja yg mahal dan berkualiti....tanpa baja-baja ,sudah pasti pokok bunga itu akan cepat layu dan kelihatan kurang cantik compare kpd pokok bungaa yg alwazzz di kasi baja yg cukop...

Sama juga mcm kehidupan kita...kita perlukan ilmu(as baja) untuk kita mencipta sejarah kecemerlangan(bunga yg cantik) dlm hidup kita....tanpa ilmu(baja),kehidupan kita akan suram(layu).... 

Fhm x??hopefully faham laaaa kisah bunga ni yep..hi9...

So....moral of the story kejar la ilmu  dunia dan akhirat.....berubah la untuk jadi rajin(pesanan untuk diri sendiri...study not for the exam only!!!study rajin2 ye adek2...if u olsss sentiasa dapat nombor terceruk dlm kelas,itu bukan bermakna anda bodoh!!tapi itu bermakna ,usaha anda belum cukop..maybe anda belom cukop baca buku(belum cukop rajin)..so,boleh x,adek2 yg mcm saya(x berapa nk pandai ni),berubah jadi rajin study lepas ni??at least 2 buku 1 minggu...??....and then later,we see the improvement....^_^..

sebarang kekhilafan mohon ampun yer adek2...

SELAMAT MAJU JAYA....^_^